Chances are you have felt lost, uncertain, and extremely pained at some point in your life. Your feelings stemming from events that may have felt out of your control. A sense of powerlessness paired with unanswered questions creeping in as you work to cope with your life altered. The overwhelming sensation of “I don’t want this” and “why me?” consuming your mind and flowing throughout your body. Every part of you wishes for it to stop, go away, be different.
Three weeks down. Three more to go. The chemotherapy and radiation treatments had begun to take their toll. Life slowly drained from my once strong and vibrant body.
I think back on those dark days when I was going through radiation and chemotherapy, when life didn’t feel familiar and lacked the sweetness I preferred. All I wanted in that moment was to be my old self again. With great impatience, I couldn’t find it in me to honor the stillness, the dormancy, the break down, the shift.